Day 7 of Injury

Despite my setback, I want to thank God for giving me a feeling of optimism.  We never know why God does the things that he does to us. All things work together for the good of those that love the Lord.  I believe in this and I will hold tight to this word.

I am going to keep you guys updated with my time of injury.  I want this to relate to the guys that need a hand through any similar rough times.  I haven't been hurt before and at times, I don't know how to feel.  This mental struggle is something that is new to me and very challenging.  I know that if I'm struggling, there is another that is having an even harder time than I am. This blog series is here for that very reason.   I pray that the things that I do to make it through this injury will bless another during their struggling times. Just a note about me, when things start to get rough in my life, I get spiritual. I know that God has full control.  Just a heads up.

Today marks the first game that I'll miss out on going into war with my brothers.  We have Methodist University today at 7:00pm.  I wonder if I could have played through this injury. Think I could have played with a broken Collarbone? I play fullback by the way.  I was definitely going to try it before my coach made me go get X-Rays Tuesday. Man, it feels so weird not prepping for the game right now. Instead, I'm on my laptop in the locker room. Watching my boys get live, focused, zoning in for a huge game.  I wish I was right there with them. 

I know God has something planned for me to be doing during these 8 weeks though.  I know that there is going to be something that comes out of this hard time for me.  Nobody can take away the pain that I have. Medicine can cure the physical pain, but the mental stress is heavy sometimes. All I've ever known was football for 15 years. It's my senior year.  My parents have tried helping, coaches have talked to me, my brothers have tried. Nothing makes me feel better.  Nothing can soothe the mental instability that I am experiencing right now. The only thing I have that can lift my head up is God.  When I lay my head down at night, my mind starts to race.  It's like when it get's too much for me to handle, he lays his hands on my forehead to give me peace. 

I know that soon, I will be able to deal with this pain on my own, but until I am able to deal with the mental stress, I'll keep relying on God power. I know he has a plan for me.  I know that he already has my life in order on the other side of this pain. 

I'll leave you with that. Hopefully, I can bless somebody going through something similar. I love you all!

- Janesh